This close to happy
A New York Times Book Review Favorite Read of 2016
Despair is always described as dull, writes Daphne Merkin, when the truth is that despairhas a light all its own, a lunar glow, the color of mottledsilver. This Close to Happy – Merkin’s rare, vividly personalaccount of what it feels like to suffer from clinicaldepression – captures this strange light.
Daphne Merkin has been hospitalized three times: first, in grade school, for childhood depression; years later, after her daughter was born, for severe postpartum depression; and later still, after her mother died, for obsessive suicidal thinking. Recounting this series of hospitalizations, as well as her visits to myriad therapists and psychopharmacologists, Merkin fearlessly offers what the child psychiatrist Harold Koplewicz calls ‘the inside view of navigating a chronic psychiatric illness to a realistic outcome.’ The arc of Merkin’s affliction is lifelong, beginning in a childhood largely bereft of love and stretching into the present, where Merkin lives a high-functioning life and her depression is manageable, if not ‘cured’. ‘The opposite of depression,’ she writes with characteristic insight, ‘is not a state of unimaginable happiness – but a state of relative all-right-ness’.
In this dark yet vital memoir, Merkin describes not only the harrowing sorrow that she has known all her life, but also her early, redemptive love of reading and gradual emergence as a writer. Written with an acute understanding of the ways in which her condition has evolved as well as affected those around her, ThisClose to Happy is an utterly candid coming-to-terms with an illness that many share but few talk about, one that remains shrouded in stigma. In the words of the distinguished psychologist Carol Gilligan, ‘It brings a stunningly perceptive voice into the forefront of the conversation about depression, one that is both reassuring and revelatory.’
Hardcover, 304 pages
Dimensions: 5.5 x 1.2 x 8.4 inch
Shipping Weight: 1 pounds
Publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux
Date: February 7th, 2017
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